Date : Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Time : 7:27 PM
Title : romance .

romance .




before anything happens : specially to one of my girlfriends out there .
to neesah : happy seventeen belated birthday .
im so sorry for the late wish .
may all your wishes come true and last long with huzzy .
peace .

tommorow is april fools day . 01/APRIL/10
tommorow is also school annual sports day . phoenix cheerleaders .
and tommorow is also my three monthsary with love .
im so over the everywhere .
but sadly i can't meet love tommorow cos working and im schooling .
sad , but on good friday we will meet up after love finish work at three am , woah .
yeah , cant wait .
i know this is random okay .

romance is what i need now :D
hee .
love starstruck .
common tests received my latest slip of report : failed everything but only malay pass .
awesome right ?
haah .
idk why , never study ?
uh , haiyo .
i already updated everything here .
and i wanna have a haircut , mallet ? v shape ? or what ?
huuh , stress lah .
i wanna go starbucks / coffeebean .
friends ?
okay bye cya .

• treasure whatever you have now , never regret later if not you would loose everything in the end .

remember that , bye .

Date : Monday, March 29, 2010
Time : 8:14 PM
Title : shot and realive aftermath .

Date : Saturday, March 27, 2010
Time : 11:06 PM
Title : i am not emo .

• how i wish my parent could understand me very well .

im just explaining everything here .
expressing all my feelings out about my parent .
so what if my sister read , let her know .
she knew it long time ago .
i just do not understand whatever i want , my parent will never grant for me .
i never owe a digital camera .
i never had a lappy of my own .
i never received a brand new handphone .
uh , i don't wish to continue .
wasting my bloody time .
im useless right ?
i know .
im stubborn , rebellious and is a piece of nothing to you .
idk lah .

love , im so upset over these matters .
im so doomed .

• i don't hesitate to kill myself any soon .

in this world , nothing capture me alive . im cursed to be a statue . nothing excites me except for a speciality i got . im imperfect , so as you .

knife . jump and dead . shot .

Date : Friday, March 26, 2010
Time : 7:18 PM
Title : advance .

that girl you should know her real well , cos i knew her for almost four years .
that picture is picture of us shisha-ing at haji lane , awesome .
without further a do , tommorow is her special seventeen birthday .
girl , cheyy dah grow up . maklumlah fifakid .

• i wanna log off soon , yeah .
• working at pizzahut tommorow + afifah birthday tommorow .
• bye .

1. i need comfort cos im flying high to somewhere idk .
2. love is all i want .
3. addiction to nothing .

Date : Thursday, March 25, 2010
Time : 8:28 PM
Title : anti stress but how ?

1. stress .
2. study .
3. friends .

emotion : very stress .
feeling : neutrally okay .
mood : nothing impressed me yet .
tempting : to meet love .
craving : chochalates . sweet ones .

my five decideful thoughts .
what can i say now , im dreadful for everything .
yes , i want love now can ?

updating profile folio : two months and twenty five days man .
happy together , smoothly sailing .
hope so .

lazy to elaborate .
i suck at my studies now i guess so .
i need an additional maths tutor to teach me the fundamentals , cos i suck almost all .
seriously , not a joking matter or what .
any tuition agencies that are cheap ?
working wise , here im stating my facts .
im stopping pizzahut , sorry fah . continuing my macdonald only .
it's very tiring and tough with two jobs on load .
OR
i stopped pizzahut until o's are cleared , if they are willing lah .
nevermind , don't want me it's okay .
i choose my dignity .
i don't follow my desire but i tail my heart says what .
reinforcing that friends are everywhere .
confusion surrounds me and unwrapping my thoughts is so worrying for me .
do nothing better , bo chap .

• i wanna meet love asap .
• afifah kid birthday , two more days .
• weekend , one more day left .
• i want to chill out supa fun time with friends .

heyy , listen here . up here you . i wanna meet someone , yeah . by the way that picture above if u are stress just bang your head to the screen , super fun . im stress but now emo yet i don't cut wrist anymore . im old enough to do what is right for my life . i depend on myself and my family sometimes , see me fall , once but never twice . maybe hurtful for me but i rebelled back . that's my personality that is hidden . try me uh . im just stating facts , not a propaganda here . bastards , lifeless the same to them .

im not mad at anyone , just felt that way . come i'll show you how to be famous in my shoes . well hurry up .

LOVE .

Date : Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Time : 6:47 PM
Title : tired uh .

• im not emo but im so happy to be with you always .
• trust me , not emo but im happy to have you bie .
• goodnight , school tommorow .
• speech day rehearsal , uh .

bye loves , with full buckets .

Date : Monday, March 22, 2010
Time : 6:10 PM
Title : sherry .

• anyway : happy nineteen

belated birthday to sherry !

21 MARCH 2010
a short post for today .
this month like alot of people birthdays , my friends . the awesome ones .
today : hidayah , queenstown sec .
happy birthday girl !
coming up ones : afifah and neesah . the awesome like popsome spices .
haha .
i miss them all , haha .

updated : two months and twenty two days .
love .

i wanna go eat with love , but tired uh .
nevermind , let's meet lah .

• school had started , like wtf so fast ?
• waiting for speech day , im performing like yeah .
• sports day , no school like wow .
• work ? which one .

hey listen here , im not emo or being whatsosever shit emo okay ?! look here , yes here . down here motherfucker , once again heyy im not emoing okay . im cool like some dudes you know out there , i may be indifferent from the other boys , but hell yeah . an example from the article : real life okay ... voguelicious ?

respect me and i shall repay you my with kindness , this not emo shit here .

• Get that ?!
• goodbye ..

Date : Saturday, March 20, 2010
Time : 12:52 AM
Title : i can't wait !

im the protagonist for this post .
so i have my rights to say what i wanna state here .
my creation . my say .
this is random , okay .

• im posting a short post .

tommorow a long day for me , prawn fishing then sherry house , parteyy . okayy , cya . heyy , i love you hunn .

BYE .

Date : Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Time : 8:28 AM
Title : oh - so - high !

thanks hunn for the company with me .
i appreciate it .
sorry to bother your time to sleep and yeahs .
but anyway , thank you so much for being here with me , home alone .



awesome , bizzare and everything lah .
i had a joyous night with love .
home alone was scary , seriously .
thanks hunn .
doing things alone in the house at night , creepy .
the eerie sounds you heard at your surroundings , wow .
im paranoid by all these , oh - god .
save me , because when im scared each time , i prayed .
nevertheless , there's someone to takecare of me during my home alone .
love .
thank you so much for your time spent with me , i love you .
yeahs uh , had fun together .

hunn left for his class at KAP .
im home alone again , independent bole tak raimy ?
haha , i love my bie so much .
thanks !
w/o love around , idk what to say liao .
happy pills after that , yeah .
haha

school holidays , monday was marvelous .
why ? went out with ite mates and my superior girlfs except for shiqin .
sadly , her parents lah .
where ? to city hall , esplanade , marina square , town .
around the clock , non stop .
special guest : louie and afifah . thanks for coming down .
wanted to go clubbing at zirca but nvm , went at orchard tower there .
the feeling of clubbing , wow .
got trannys . haha .
awesome lah .
played around with police i think .
louie was overwhelemed because his aunt was there .
her aunt boyf , mat salleh treat us coke , sadly no vodka .
i wanna drink lah doinks .
special sorry to : yanti and ex primary school friends .
why ? for not going to zirca and celebrating aminah's advance birthday parteyy .
so far afterall , i had a blast , seriously .
thanks to all my friends out there , that made me go crazy .
the picture above are drugs which makes you even hyper .
just like sabriena sherman / hansley .
she rock lah girlf .
im lost , prawn fishing / sherry birthday parteyy ?
uh , stress .
which ?
idk lah .

emphasising once again , im not emo .
proof ? no pictures of goth person .
happy ?
smiling *
haha .
i can't wait anymore .
today tuesday , yesterday monday was a blast lah !
haha
hope today as well okay .

• heading to downtown east to swim like some fish , half price i think . anyone ?
• i miss my bie , class .
• homeworks are undone , already plan out each day do what . dump it anywhere .
• im oh - so - over - the - rainbow ?
• idk why ?

what's up ? orange thing at facebook . check them out yeah . i wanna go eat can ? super hungry , cyaaa later or wherever . have fun . i wanna have fun to the max , seriously !

Emo !

Date : Monday, March 15, 2010
Time : 12:20 PM
Title : hallucination of love .

hallucination of love , im thinking of you love .
im not oh - so - emo down here .
my mind is hallucinating about love only , no less and more .



are men full with ego ?
random lah .
i always kept asking that question in my mind .
along the way , there's a long path to get hallucinate by and with love .
just like a railway track , very long distance and it takes time to reach to our destination .
put it in a relationship manner , our goal to an eternity love must be postive and it takes time to cool down matters and last long , just stay on the right track okay raimy , persevere and stay on the correct track to reach to your ideal destination with your love .
i won't let go of love forever .
yeah .

love texted me earlier .
haha .
i love you lah .
i'll reply back soon .
nothing is worth it than love you had in you .

does emo got to do with black and red ?
black is what ?
red is what ?
hell yeah , im not emo okay hunn !

• mum and sister fly off to their holidays destination .
• left me , home alone with twenty bucks . sad .
• im going out now , go have fun and release stress with mates at marina .
• old friend , text me and asked me if i wanna go zirca or not ? underage party .
• should i go and have fun there ? clarke quay ?
• clubbing sial , temptation sia .

let me think okay , i wanna go get ready and meet my other mates . girlfriends let's go ga - ga !

im ain't an emo saint !

Date : Sunday, March 14, 2010
Time : 11:27 PM
Title : received / relieved .

i received his text earlier , im oh - so - over the moon .
this picture below is replying back his text , happy thinking and working it out .
raimy is not emo , depicting .



that picture is so awesome , i wish that person could be me .
interesting yeah ?
it stated there , so hell yeah .
wow , two posts in a day .
awesome lah .

hunn , no matter what i love you .
do you rememeber ...
a song by jay sean .
i love it .
i guess im abit okay now .
simple and sweet : i love you and i won't leave you , never in my life .

today , work was okay so far .
didn't talk to bie .
idk why , don't ask .
rushed back to watch my show .
faizal isa is hot !
yeah .
tommorow mum and sister flying of to kuala lumpur .
and im oh - so - going to rock the house down .
haha .
im going out to relax and chill with ite mates , ex school mates lah .
i wanna be relieved .

• life is unfair , full of surprises each day with your surroundings and don't expect the way you wanted it to be .
• i regard my love , family and friends as my top list of my life .
• i don't wish to fail my education system now , charge on .

that may be random to you , to me is part and parcel of my life . im feeling abit okay after all the work just now , i need a rest . thanks for letting me know that sayang , im cooler now i think . i'll do soemthing to myself to make me happy like before and lastly i miss those sweet moments i had together with you .

with the best regards , i love you hunn no matter what . love . peace and joyous :)

Date :
Time : 12:10 PM
Title : cheat my feelings ?

i don't wish to be emo / so whatever shit you called it .
i tried to be happy but it seems like going to a waste of my time .
im not emo but im just feeling abit down at a moment .
nothing excites me for the past two days , seriously .



that picture above simply have a reason that i wanna be with my love forever .
to hold hands firmly and tightly , so as to feel the love sensation .
but what had happened ?
ego / emo / self thoughts of negative views ?
what must i do then ?
i just wanna hold hands when we meet up and enjoy like some sweet couples out there .
i tried to resist myself , but i can't .
i seriously don't know what happened , because of what ?
i just know that : i love you so much .
w/o replying my texts messages makes me feel more worst and the last msg i received was yesterday .
cheat my feelings .... what's up with that sentence ?
im clueless .
i had reasoned myself out here .
i need you hunn .

i feel very worst now .
i feel like crying and breakdown .
i feel like not doing anything .
im so devastated by all these matters .
yeah , i knew it's my fault i think so .

• when am i working back at pizzahut then ?
• what should i do to make my love life more worth it ?
• when am i starting to mug my damn homeworks ?
• i think i can't fly somehow now , i need help from love .

uhh , think of a postive side , but i can't decide . im ignorant now , i have no say for now . ending my blog post for now and to rest my mind , im so in confusion after thinking about all these , hunn are u okay ? that's all , im dreadful to smile anytime . cos i have to drag myself to work and smile . ima bitch that is procasinating , im oh - so - down ...

i just wished that i don't have to be down like this .

Date : Saturday, March 13, 2010
Time : 1:13 PM
Title : by the beach .

sentosa island , siloso beach .
a very romantic , calm and peacful place to chill out with your love to enjoy fruitful time together with the waves hitting the rocks and the wonderful chilly wind in the evening .
i had my great and awesome day yesterday at sentosa with my love , spending each seconds with the romance , and wonderful scenes such as the ships and fireworks too .
the very melodious music played , feeling like some palace kingdom with soothing ocean waves .
seriously , don't ever miss this chance couples out there .




the picture above depicts the coconut tree with the beach , sensational yet the view was very amazing with the soothing wind and melodious songs played . sentosa island is an awesome place to hang out with the love one you treasured . let me explain why ? i had mine and it was interesting . we did alot of exciting things by the beach , enjoying the hours together . ate , talked and share within the beach . i had my awesome time there yesterday and wished to go there everyday and have fun , thrilling fun but time is worrying the situation , uhh !
some introduction of the venue that i went yesterday with love .
had fun together .
ample time spent .
made me smile , like very wide smile .
very true .

every kissed you gave me .
every hugged you hold me .
every whispered you told me .
were the most memorable and precious gift i ever had with you .
this may sound emo to you , but im not .
sitting by the beach to chill out , is not emo .
wanna feel the waves through me and have fun .
i just love you each day , each day that i can't meet you made the love built very hard and steady .
with that , i wished that we could be together forever and to meet each day with happy love .
how i wished may ever come through , god .
hunn , no matter what : endurance to everything in you and me .

Date : Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Time : 9:17 PM
Title : my final gratitude of life , to move and change .

nothing beats me when i realised that i did mistakes towards you .
i regard friendship as my top list of life , then relationship .
i may have a fucking shitty _____ in myself , i shall change for the better .
im willing to do that now , especially to my dearest girlf / bestf : myra ... im truly sorry .

Date : Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Time : 10:56 PM
Title : what's wrong now ?

picture of faizal isa and a few other stars parteyy .
those who came and made the event an awesome and a blast one !




i did have my fun and crazy down there , right sis fizah ?
indeed all of us , met new friends too .
everything was a perfect event that was worth it after all .
the parteyy is already over .
face the future but recall the best days ever .

im love confuse .
what's happening to me , like seriously .
what must i do ?
relax / act now ?
uhh .
i just know that : i love you so much ( i spelled it out just for you )
this is not random but true .

i wanna go sleep early lah .
don't wish to think so much later old .
malay dance was tiring .
tommorow rehearsal , sucks .
uhh , so tired .
i wanna meet prince charming !

• i don't know what to do now .
• wish to move on / stick to it ?
• uhh , how ?

however , you are forever in my heart always .

halfway .. i can't drag myself to continue further , it's hurting . very pain . where are you when i needed you sayang ? time flies , when ?

Date : Monday, March 8, 2010
Time : 9:27 PM
Title : i felt so super down hunn .

• EMO / EMOTIONALLY DOWN ?

• STRESS / UPTIGHT ?

• I NEED YOU NOW BADLY LOVE !

no matter what , im holding on and enduring here . i'll be strong to hallucinate all that situation .

puppy love or what ? but i love you badly , text me hunn .

i know all about love , love and love . nothing beats me to realise what is world to me ...

Date : Saturday, March 6, 2010
Time : 9:16 PM
Title : continue later .

i wanna be a full time laughing pills for all .
i wanna live my life to the fullest .
i wanna have you in my life forever .

the parteyy was awesome .
seriously , met faizal isa of cos and farhan shah !
wow right ?
will blog more with pictures uploaded at facebook , weeee .
tak wasted my twelve bucks , hee .
i also get to meet new fun friends .
i get to meet funky fai , yeah .
all were awesome .
the foods was great , power .
yeah , will blog more later / soon .
i wanna watch cinta ixora soon / like now .
seeyaaaaaaaa .
i love ya faizal isa , can sing , dance and act . so cool !

Date : Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Time : 6:07 PM
Title : never plan to fail now ﺕ

i know i may be late to wish him ,
but no matter what , i wanna wish the dude below which is faizal isa :

happy belated eighteen birthday !



may all your wishes come true and have an awesome day yeah .
im coming for your birthday party this friday and fyi , i can't wait anymore seriously .
i wanna meet you , shake your hand and smile all the way .
i wanna hear you sing and dance , it's awesome absolutely .
i wanna take many many photo's with you , hawtstuff .
yeah , so many i wanna all .
yeah , once again my favourite idol , faizal isa : happy belated birthday .
hahahahaha .
have fun and cya .

i think i super like justin bieber , his like yeah [Y]
hotstuff power like boomz !
the new song : baby , wow .
the video was awesome .
rock on justin bieber , but yea wanna meet him someday yeah .
but just stick to one : prince charming .
haha .

boring part now .
- combined humanities / social studies test . [ DONE ]
- elementary mathematics test . [ DONE ]
- english language test . [ DONE ]
- science test .
- malay .
come on man , finish up all that tests .
results , hell yeah .
i failed my math paper , sadly .
im sorry , but i had fun someday with you .
haha , screwed up alot of papers .
\m/ .
what to do ?
endure , idk ?
uh , next .

let's talk about my hunn .
oh yah , happy two monthsary together .
almost forget , but yea \m/ !
i had great night with ya .
thanks , ilysm .
great to have you by my side , ilyt .
last long lah , bie ...
thank you so much for being there for me at times .
i love you no matter what , rain / shine .
i treasure and appreciate everything you gave me , i make use of it with love and sincerity .
i trust and believe you as the journey for us this love month / february a very awesome days we had .
imysm seriosuly , next round ?
haha . joking .
and lastly , i won't ever and never will leave you hunn .
im assure no one will assasinate our love , hmph .
may our love be very strong until eternity .
ilyhunn .

you are my inspiration to work harder .
my everything though .
friends are partly yes to me .
especially my superior girlfs , prawn fishing yea .
we must meet .
\m/
imy neesah , if u read this . girlf ...
with the rest , not in order : fatihah , cqin , myra and sabriena .
special lovers .
ilyall .

i think that's all for now .
now is the month of march .
work harder if you had fail the previous two months , no sweat lah .
im willing to strive for better goals .
my philosophy is easy .
my objective : to ace my o's .
all are random .
cyaaaaaa around .
i wanna reflect and my back hurts , backache ?

• faster finish all the common tests .
• i wanna meet my prince charming .
• i want to lepak with girlfriends .
• i miss working at ...
• i want you , haha . especially my hunn lah !

lol , all the best and i can't wait for faizal isa birthday party , surprise surprise . happpyyyyyyy . sherryy imyt , takecare . im tired now , wanna study for science papers tommorow and text hunny oh yeah , bie i want you seriously and smoking is bad , trust me . oh random lah , i got a box with half of twenty full sticks , yeah . haha . i just knew a schoolmate of mine smoking , junior , tee heee . random again !

hahahahahahahahahahahaahah , blog next soon .