Date : Sunday, March 14, 2010
Time : 12:10 PM
Title : cheat my feelings ?

i don't wish to be emo / so whatever shit you called it .
i tried to be happy but it seems like going to a waste of my time .
im not emo but im just feeling abit down at a moment .
nothing excites me for the past two days , seriously .



that picture above simply have a reason that i wanna be with my love forever .
to hold hands firmly and tightly , so as to feel the love sensation .
but what had happened ?
ego / emo / self thoughts of negative views ?
what must i do then ?
i just wanna hold hands when we meet up and enjoy like some sweet couples out there .
i tried to resist myself , but i can't .
i seriously don't know what happened , because of what ?
i just know that : i love you so much .
w/o replying my texts messages makes me feel more worst and the last msg i received was yesterday .
cheat my feelings .... what's up with that sentence ?
im clueless .
i had reasoned myself out here .
i need you hunn .

i feel very worst now .
i feel like crying and breakdown .
i feel like not doing anything .
im so devastated by all these matters .
yeah , i knew it's my fault i think so .

• when am i working back at pizzahut then ?
• what should i do to make my love life more worth it ?
• when am i starting to mug my damn homeworks ?
• i think i can't fly somehow now , i need help from love .

uhh , think of a postive side , but i can't decide . im ignorant now , i have no say for now . ending my blog post for now and to rest my mind , im so in confusion after thinking about all these , hunn are u okay ? that's all , im dreadful to smile anytime . cos i have to drag myself to work and smile . ima bitch that is procasinating , im oh - so - down ...

i just wished that i don't have to be down like this .